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[Thursday,September 01 2005 @ 3:25pm] |
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The first day of school rocked. lol
I hung out with JT most of the day, he is so funny sometimes. I saw some of you hot peeps around school today, yeah...im tired.
Now, i'm in my pjs..watching tv! Awww, my life is so pathetic that i have nothing to do hahaha.
Well, me and terri are gonna watch some Laguna Beach-ness.
xo. Darcy
[[sorry i haven't updated haha...school started ;; and it sucks. lol]]
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[Friday,August 26 2005 @ 10:02pm] |
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Regret
1. A sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone.
2. A feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different.
3. regrets A courteous expression of regret, especially at having to decline an invitation.
...yeah, whatever.
School is starting soon, i guess i should go shopping or something. Who wants to go with me? =D
Party Sunday.
xo.Darce
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[Monday,August 22 2005 @ 9:58pm] |
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Apparently i'm an annoying bitch...awww thanks jay for pointing that out to me. I guess i was being one, i don't know. Why can't i just find a guy who will care about me...yeah yeah;; my fault that i dumped spin...but im over him, yeah--thats what im sticking with.
Ex boyfriends suck, well sorta...some are better than others.
Talked to Amy yesterday, my fellow Gilmore Girls fan lol. She is really awesome--and its interesting that we were watching the same movie. Well, interesting to me. Also talked to C, my boy, my homie g...yeah haha.
Well i'm off to think about random stuff.
xo. Darce
Oh BTW, party at my house Sunday...come by--ooo fun fun!! Leave a comment if your coming.[[chat will be at 9 eastern time...please be online// we need to get some drama.]]
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[Saturday,August 20 2005 @ 9:48pm] |
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Wow, i've been sort of gone lol. Just been hanging around with Terri aka the coolest person ever. lolHer ex boyfriend or something came over--terri hid in a closet. So i basically made up some excuse about getting dumped and pretended to cry. so he left // he was really scary-ish. Definetly did not get good vibes from him.
I've been thinking alot lately, about nothing reallu..My feelings for jay are kind of---i don't know. Maybe i should talk to him or something
Yeah, so who wants to 'chill' with me. Maybe a movie at my house--ooo la la. So IM me if you want to hang out. =)I hope Jay IMs me ;x
xo. Darce.
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[Monday,August 15 2005 @ 5:20pm] |
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So i didn't have a party...i wasn't in a partying mood. Sorry to disappoint anyone lol.
I haven't been up to much lately...pathetic eh?
Nothing to update about, who wants to hang out??
xo. Darce
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[Wednesday,August 10 2005 @ 2:57pm] |
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So nothings been going on lately.
I haven't talked to anyone in so long, where is everyone? lol. I'm so bored // Its sad. I haven't been feeling to good lately, flu or something.
Yeah, nothing to really update about. pathetic.
Darce
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[Monday,August 01 2005 @ 4:14pm] |
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Wow...long time // NO update.
Nothing really has been going on, it has been pretty mellow. I watch Laguna Beach constantly..it's sad haha.
I went over to C's place;; its very nice! He cooked for me rofl // it was good btw. I was so nice || I washed the dishes :). Shocking eh?! I like him alot...but i don't know. Ash is my friend, so i refuse to hurt her. damn;; all the good guys are taken lol.
So thats all, i'm off to watch LB. hehe.
DArcy.
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go
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[Monday,July 25 2005 @ 5:34pm] |
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I haven't been doing much...i can actually walk around and leave. Still sore// but i'm fine. I watched the Laguna Beach marathon, since there was nothing to do. Kristen is such a bitch lol...i love it.
People have come to see me;; and i totally love them for it. Hmmm i'm trying to think of people lol. Heather;; aka one of the best people. Ash;; :). Uhm Spin came over for a bitI could tell he felt bad about the whole not being there thing, but its fine...i'm honestly ok with it. Then he asked questions about the ring jay gave/mailed me, uncomfortable!. Thanks everyone for coming..maybe i'll see more people soon.
Hung out with craig at the park..poor thing got hit with a swing lol. It was so funny...lol wow. Then we sat on the ground with his coat on both of us...it was amazing. i get happy when i see him, i feel great when i'm around him..and..wow--i think i like him.
The whole jay situation..i don't know. i'm not gonna wait around and watch him make out with paige. i refuse to be screwed over anymore;; even though i screw people over alot--i cant do it anymore. i need a boyfriend...minus any problems. i mailed jay back his ring..i don't know he can give it to princess paige or something.
Well i'm off to thinkAbout my feelings for craig
-Darcy.
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[Thursday,July 21 2005 @ 2:03am] |
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In the hospital..yes the rumors are true, i am no longer preggers. People have never felt pain until they have given birth to an 8 pound girl. Three words: condoms! Condoms! CONDOMS!. Thanks paige for coming since spin didn't answer his phone.Wow...i love how the person who got me pregnant can't actually be there when i have it Whatever though, paige helped me alot, thanks so much. She called jay to come, uhm...because jay would want to come and see spin's daughter being born. uhm i don't think so.... So i get to come home tomorrow night and lay in bed for a week...so people better come by and keep me company. && the parents that are adopting Brooke Lynn, yeah i picked a name, are coming to get her in 4 days...so i'll be baby free and back to my normal self.
So jays back..again. thats cool.He mailed me a ring a few days ago, he said he didn't need it. so im wearing it...cause thats what you do with rings. its beautiful. I love him so much, but i screwed everything up before...so i don't know anymore.
Well, i'm tired...because giving birth gets you sleepy.
-Darce.
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[Monday,July 18 2005 @ 2:50am] |
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Uhm yeah. my mood kind of took a 180 degree turn.
Yeah, i sorta always pictured if a guy was to play music outside my window...it wouldn't hurt me. Jay left a boom box outside my window and must of driven off...the song hurt me so much;; i hate to admit that he made me cry a little..but he did. The lyrics are what killed me.
'Tell me exactly
what am I supposed to do?
Now that I have
allowed you to beat me!
Do you think that
we could play another game?
Maybe I can win this time?
I kind of like
the misery you put me through.
Darling, you can trust me
completely.
If you even try
to look the other way,
I think that I could kill this time.
Rah! Rah! {x2}
It doesn't really seem
I'm getting through to you.
Though I see you weeping so sweetly.
I think that you might
have to take another taste,
a little bit of hell this time.
Rah! Rah!
Lie to me!
Rah! Rah!
Lie to me!
Is she not right?
Is she insane?
Will she now run for her life
in the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?!
Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her life
now that she LIED TO ME!
You always wanted
people to remember you.
You leave your little mark on
society!
Don't you know your wish
is coming true today?
Another victim dies tonight.
Rah! Rah!
Lie to me!
Rah! Rah!
Lie to me!
Is she not right?
Is she insane?
Will she now run for her life
in the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?!
Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her life
now that she LIED TO ME!
Ramidi ma ma ba di ma!
Ramidi ma ma din do!
Ramidi ma ma ba di ma!
Ramidi ma ma ba di mo!
{all x2}
Is she really telling lies again?
Doesn't she realize she's in danger?
Eeeeeeeyow!
Is she not right?
Is she insane?
Will she now run for her life
in the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?!
Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her life
now that she LIED TO ME!
The little bitch,
she went and she told A LIE!
Now she will never tell another.
A LIE!
The little bitch,
she went and she told A LIE!
NEVER FUCKING LIE TO ME!'
Yeah i deserve it...i admit that, i'm the worst person that ever lived.
Uhm..well i'm gonna go to sleepI don't want jay to leave, but obviously...he hates me. But if i was him..i would hate me too. I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep...with that song stuck in my head.
-Darcy
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[Sunday,July 17 2005 @ 2:09pm] |
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I'm so fucking happy!I woke up this morning...and totally had no more 'love' towards spin. I am over him, and i couldn't be happier. Enough of me being totally depressed and everything...i'm really happy for him and ellie.
Talked to Jay...yeah. Thanks for blocking me, just cause you wanted the last word. lol yeah, whatever. I felt bad for being such an asshole to him...hes actually nicer then some would think he is, he just acts all badass at times. I miss him sorta..i ruined it though;; i was a total bitch to him for no reason.
Yeah, well i'm gonna go and...do nothing. if you want to hang or something;; call me or IM me.
-Darce.
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[Saturday,July 16 2005 @ 7:41pm] |
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I've actually been sorta ok lately, shocking...but true. Terri is home more, which is just so fabulous..i missed my favorite girl!<333. We've been hanging out alot--shopping and such.For baby clothes and other things babies need. wow...i really need to read a book about 'how to raise a baby' lol. So, i've decided to keep the baby...and i could careless about what spinner fucking thinks. =D. actually, i'm not planning on telling him, or anyone else. i'm gonna pretend to give it up for adoption. yeah whatever.
Uhm, wow...i really don't remember what i was gonna talk about. I'm having a blonde moment// or a paige moment..whatever you prefer. :P lol jk paige.
Uhmm...anyone want to go to the movies with a pregnant chick? lol.
-Darcy.
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[Monday,July 11 2005 @ 2:35pm] |
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Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
MY total mind is a blank. I've hit an all time low...i just don't know what to do anymore. o_O
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[Sunday,July 10 2005 @ 2:28am] |
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Hmmmmm// nothings been going on lately.
Talked to ash online for a bit...cause shes just oh so cool! =D I'm glad everything with the house is going good.
Talked to spin for a little bit too, heard he gave ellie a promise ring. I hope you two are happy together =D.Oh god..CHOKE ME PLEASE!. Spin wants to be involved in the pregnancy, well i guess he should be since...well, it is his. But the whole thing will just depress me even more then it has. But again, its my fault..i dumped him. STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID Me! Eh..whatever.
C we need to hang like SOOON! we should go for a walk or something, cause your my BESTFRIENDFOREVERANDEVERANDEVER...etc.
Well i'm off to sleepI feel some night sickness coming :'(
xxDARCE
Oh yeah...paige's party tomorrow. can't wait!I should have fun trying to avoid spinner and ellie.
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[Tuesday,July 05 2005 @ 8:24pm] |
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So i guess spin and ellie are back, thats coolI haven't seen him...i guess he really doesn't want to see me. but i dont care. ok, maybe i care..but oh well;; he loves ellie.
this whole 'pregnancy' thing is oh so great. note the sarcasm. i don't know which one i like better..morning sickness, afternoon sickness, or night sickness...they are just all so precious.And the best part is..i have no one to help me through it all. terri is never home, shes with her dad more and more..i don't have a boyfriend. ugh i dont know, its just really hard having no one to take care of me. But i got myself into the whole mess, so i'm alone.
yeah..well if anyone wants to hang out with a pregnant girl || i'm all for it! :)
xxDARCY
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[Thursday,June 30 2005 @ 6:25pm] |
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I'm really just blah. I've been sorta anti-social lately, but i'm just gonna start getting out there more. Who wants to hang out with me;; anyone..i'm desperate. lol well i really don't have much to talk about nothing at all interesting has happened at all.I talked to spin, i told him i like him. he didn't even think anything of it..well thats what it seemed like.i don't know.
I want a guy who calls me "beautiful" instead of "hot". who calls me back when i hang up on him. who will lie under the stars and listen to my heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch me sleep. who kisses my forehead & who wants to show me off to the world when i'm in sweats. who holds my hand in front of his friends. who thinks i'm the prettiest when i have no make up on and insists on holding me around the waist. someone who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have me.. somebody who turns to his friends and says "that's her"
xoDARCY
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[Saturday,June 25 2005 @ 1:24pm] |
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27 ways to make a girl smile... awww soo true. =D
*1 . Tell her she is beautiful
*2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
*3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
*4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
*5 . Always tell her you love her every second of the day.
*6 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
*7 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
*8 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
*9 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
*10 . Write her notes. (she loves them)
*11 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.
*12 . Play with her hair.
*13 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
*14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
*15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
*16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night . . . just because you missed her.
*17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
*18. Carve your names into a tree.
*19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
*20 . Give her piggyback rides.
*21 . Bring her flowers just because.
*22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
*23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
*24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
*25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
*26 . Kiss her in the rain.
*27 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.
Wow i remember when someoneSpinner did most of those things.Why did i dump him again?...:-\
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
We Belong Together
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[Thursday,June 23 2005 @ 5:47pm] |
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So..lately, i've been ok.
Went over craig's house the other day...he cheered me up. I'm not feeling sorry for myself anymore. thanks c!!!:0)
I've been thinking about spinner lately, bad idea. i know, i just don't know. my mind is all over the place;; him and ellie are happy...so i guess// theres nothing to think about. i'll just be lonely;; i'm a bad person. why do i hurt people all the time. WHY did i break up with spin for jay?..ugh.
The babies doing good;; the adoption agency found a good couple for her. Oh yeah, did i mention its a girl?...i'm not sure if i have before. I'm gonna have to meet them soon;; it should be good.
so theres really nothing else to talk about;; so im offto try and get the thought of spinner out of my head....DAMN i can't stop thinking about him
xxDARCY
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[Sunday,June 19 2005 @ 7:54pm] |
SO...me and jay are over. he dumped me!
Point, mock...make jokes about my bad judgement in guys.
IDONTCARE.
I hope all you fucking couples are happy
If i wasn't pregnant i would drink!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[Wednesday,June 15 2005 @ 3:31pm] |
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So haven't done much lately. but whatever.
I went to the carnival with spinWEIRD WEIRD WEIRD, i felt so akward and...i don't think he really wanted me there.. I won a giant stuffed dog;; its huge. lol
I know jay has been at night school and work, but i never see him. i'm so selfish;; maybe i just want someone who can be there for me when i want them there. But whatever, i'll just stay here alone like i always do...i hate being depressed;; especially being depressed and having to hide it through laughter. I hate being around couples...ash and craig are so cute together-- i want what they have.
yeah. hmmm-well, i'm off to do nothing.Jt told me he liked me, uhm...wow. i don't know.
xxDarce
when a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. when a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around. when a girl answers, "i'm fine." after a few seconds, she is not all that fine. when a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying. when a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for her to be yours forever. when a girl says, "i love you.", she means it. when a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you're her future. when a girl says, "i miss you.", no one in this world can miss you more than she does...
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